I've thought, "You work hard, you're doing great. You should branch out and be brave. Play in Austin." So I did.
Music is beautiful. The major and minor, suspended notes, other various modes, time signatures and the 15 different keys; all evoke different emotions and work best depending on a sadder ballad, exciting number or murderous endeavor; and how you desire to portray it. It makes no sense at all and makes all the sense in the world, how all these aspects and more fit together to make something that seems so simple. The way an artist takes all these tools, uses and emotes them through their voice, their instrument, their words and/or their performance is captivating. Especially when one is good at it.
I saw a number of different artists on my recent endeavor to Austin, Texas. Those that are playing residencies that have lasted over 20 years and are legends in the scene, those headlining Gruene Hall, the oldest dance hall in Texas, those playing a weekly gig at a roadhouse and those invited to jump on their contemporaries sets. The skill level is ginormous and awe inspiring. I do work hard, I am doing great, but I need to work harder.
Launching a Kickstarter when I was in Austin was terrifying, exciting and is still surreal. I have extremely talented friends and colleagues and at first I felt a bit foolish to be honest; going forward with a project when I have so much more work to do.
However. I did have the realization, "This is a snapshot in time. This is where I am and I know this is what I want to do. Of course, I will never be good enough. No one ever is. If you think you are, you have greater problems. I am not going to stop learning."
This first small tour, if you can even call it that, was such a learning experience and I am so grateful to be surrounded by knowledgeable, kind and talented people. Thank you.
I do work hard, I am doing great.
I will work even harder.